bLoG...

Hi, I never expect my blog to write sad things.. Tot it will never happen to me animore.. My life seem to be going down hill after I went into army.. It hit rock bottom when I was in the Army.. It got better when I about to enter Uni.. but now, once again I fell back to rock bottom... How sad is that? I haven had enough happy moment in my life yet.. Stop all the saddening things from happening to me can? GOD?? Pls msg me, can?? Bored~ My blog is used to register happy moment for me n loved one to look upon after some times.. But now, I'm writing sad events which I must conquer! Life Goes On.. Remember that when you r in the same situation like me... But hope no1 experience what I experience, pls.... It sux....

s@+uRd@y~

Hi, I just come back to hostel from Bugis. I went to Kwan Inn Temple (观音庙) @ 四马路。 I went to pray for good fortunes in my exams and a safe and smooth trip to and fro from Hongkong for Wendy and family. I ask for a divine.. It turn out to be bad one. It says; "Do not be deceived by one whom one thinks is good. Be alert in body and soul, so as to be out of danger." It also say, "Do recall wise counsel. One takes a thief for a son. All good sights are mere illusion. In time, they revert back to their original state." I still deciphering... if anyone happen to know what it means, pls write it in my chatterbox.. k? Thanks.. I also pray for 5 lucky charm for me and her family who are going to HongKong. This is the first time I pray for 平安符。 Hope it really can bless them and protect them against any harm. I feel very uneasy as I cant send her off, which I usually do. Sad~ I awaiting for her return.. Going to miss her.. Guess what.. Her mum give me a carton of maggi from HongKong.. It is damn delicious esp cook by wendy.. Haiz.. Miss it very much.. n our dog, SiSi..

F@iLuRe

Hi, from my title... u all shld know i fail my driving.. sad... wendy went to SSDC instead of UBI.. more sad.. Guess.. she is pissed off when I told her I'm at UBI.. Haiz.. F@+e playing on us... NOw i must concentrate on my studies...

Happy 1Mth ADEN!!!

P-PLATE DAY!!!!

Hi, very excited now!! tml i having my driving test... i have been waiting for this for very long le... cant afford to make mistake tml!! Aza Aza Fighting!! i know i can do it.. i must prove to myself that i can believe myself.. SELF-CONFIDENCE ... I HAVE YOU!!! Good luck @lViN~~ sm more wendy will be there to cheer you on!!! YES!! DO OR DIE!!!

Pe@cE iN mY mInD~~

I couldn't sleep or study... smthing is missing in my life... I must wake up before it's too late... @lViN WAKE UP pls... WAKE UP!!

wH@+ @m I dOiNg??

I juz came back with a jug of beer in me.. I feeling giddy now... so are my buddies.. KL n CG.. thanks them n UE for being with me.. This is the first time that we sit down at a table n tok abt our personal life..FIRST TIME IN 9YRS! we always kp things in our heart... This time they reveal what i had been hiding... Haha~~ Cant believe it.. Now i really believe yr true friends are those who tell u who u r even when you r low... Thanks pals.. I will forcus in my studies now.. be less stress n heed yr advice.. I hope.. pls dun blame me if i still do stupid things... ok? thanks.. love u all n bless that we have a good life ahead of us.. aniway i'm sort of drunk now... haha~~ head spinning~~ tml learning driving.. i'm gg to slp.. gd nite~~

S@d d@y~~

Irritating guy.. that's me.. Morning I was soooooo happy bcos we chat.. but now... I'm a pest! haha~~ drastic change.. Wenz aka Judo ger get 4 me 2 cans of beer.. i shared it with my roomie... I finish it with only few slips.. Haiz.. Sch work is realli very stressing... now she dun 4give me.. I'm gone... Trying to study.. Cm'on @lVin... Study... Get the grade u wants and u can have other things u want in yr life... JUZ GET IT OVER N DONE WITH!!

Sick (^@^) n (";)...

Today, I finish school quite early... I was very demoralising bcos of the chem quiz.. the whole class say it was tough.. so I guess I'm safe... I wanted to go and find wendy as she is sick yest... but sadly, i fall sick also!! dwn with fever n flu.... sad~~ But i still msg her whether want to meet for dinner but she was lazy.. Haizz... I cant go her hse as she say her mum might cry again after seeing me.. SAD! What @ low blow!!!

But i'm very very happy that she will reply my msg already.. Thanks for that.. I went to cant A to eat juz now.. I miss the last shuttlebus and had to take bus 199... I ate japanese food... But i'm still hungry~ I decided to give up seeking for food and walk back to hostel.... I saw alot of ppl over at the canteen and library.... GOD!! I'm dead...

Start pouring liao... Sian... I have to run back to hostel... I'm very tired~~

@ vErY sLiM cH@nCe~~

Hi.. Yest. she msg me.... N ask me to study but I cant do it as I kp thinking of her.. Then she say she will tok abt it aft exam.. I say no as I realli afraid that she be gone.. Guess what she say... 'WONT'.... "Jia You!!'.... Her words are so magical that can bring me back to life.. I had alway believe her.. n now i will believe what she say... Pls make it happen... Exams will be over very fast... Pls... I need u! Wendy (^@^)~~ Smth surprise me also... she say she view my blog!!! YES!!

ThE l@s+ dInNeR~~

She wasnt ready when I get there.. I waited.. I bought her roses during my driving lesson and it almost cost my life to buy it.. I almost met with an accident while running across the road in the heavy rain... Luckily the driver perform E-brake on time n scream vulgarities at me... I ask her mum to hide the roses.. I passed the flower in the car.. Mayb she is driving.. She din hold the flower.. We talk abit on the car.. Nx we reached Suntec.. N we went to a restuarant call 'Olio' where we had our first dinner date.. I tot it was smthing romantic but it turn out useless.... We chat during our dinner and I was the only one laughing.. I asked her whether we can take pics but she rejected... but she allow me to take pic of her... the dinner turn out bad.. the food sux... next we went to carrefour to buy some stuffs for the baby... along the way she was busy msging.. I guess it was KR... I was very sad as she try to avoid me peeping the msg...

Along the way, i gathered enough courage to ask her whether we still have a chance to be together... she say that she dun want any boyfriend for a yr.. not anyone... I was devastated when I hear it... 1yr!!!! OMG!!!! How am I gg to live? But she is willing to go out with me n m friends... I accept the offer as I feel if we can wait for a year, she is the right ger for me... I realli hope she keep her promises and we can be together.. 22 Aug '04, on my bdae.. I ask her to be my gf!!... 22 Aug '05, also on my bdae.. I wished that we can be together 4ever... 22 Aug '06, I hoped I can win her heart!! Aft shopping, we went back home.. Her mum cried when she hear the news abt us... I consoled her but I almost cry as she has been very good to me.. On the way back.. I tell her that if we realli break, her mum will take me as her god-son.. she laughed~~ I dun want the title, so is her mum.. I will wait no matter what, unless either one of us give up... My eyes twitch... N smthing realli happen!! her granny pass away... Sad... It was a double blow to her mum and to her.. I called at the wrong moment, she was sobbing.. It was the first time.. I was very sad.. I wanted to go back and keep her accompany but I afraid she will be very pissed!!! I had to concentrate on my studies or I will not be able to answer to alot of ppl... Including u, wendy...

U r the most impt in my life... I will do my upmost to please u as I regret that I din treasure u as I promised! I will makeup for all mymistakes.. I beg for your trust and a chance..

F@mIlY PhOtOs...

Today, my family went to take family photo at Serangoon Broadway... It was for my sis as she juz graduate... Congrats sis for obtaining such a good result that makes me strive to beat u... It had been a long time, my family come together... I juz simply loved it.. But my mood was not there, as there is a more impt date for me.. Pls wait for me...

HiDe n SeEk~~

Thanks Desmond n Jasmine.... Thanks for accompanying me for the night.. I really appreciate you guys... We went grapevine to have a drink but it closes at 1am only.. I had my usual strawberry smoothie while Des n Jas had mango smoothie n Kilkenny.... OMG!! A ger drinking beer while the sad one is drinking a soft drink... Aft that we went to a stone table and continue our chat... Everything lasted for 2hrs... I can tell Des n Jas are tired liao, but they juz want to acc me.. I'm so touched!!! After they went home, I went to Michelle's place prata shop hoping to see her but to no avail.. I msg her.. Luckily, she reply and say she is in town... I went to several usual hangout places for nothing... U may think is foolish but I juz cant have peace in my mind.. Pls pardon all my mistakes, I know there r too many...

i'M pR@cTiC@lLy @ f--KiNg LoSeR...

Life sux to the core... I realli want to make things rite.. but i wont get animore chance... Y? cos I'm juz a loser... I realli did what I can liao.. Friends, thanks for being there... I realli cant get along with anyone? What i want is juz a simple life with you... nothing more...... our memories are realli hard to erase.. Mayb u can juz do it... but not for me.. I realli devoted to u since we r together... mayb my way of showing isnt good but pls tell me, so I can change... U came in my life when I am low, U left when I need you the most..... i dun have time already... is either do or die... haiz.. the happiest memories..

uNh@pPiNeSs....

I wont be happy for a very long while I guess... I pissed her off today again... Stop bothering me!! That's a strong word.. She's moody... I din know that till she tell me the reason.. I realli hope that I can be by her side n share her burden.. But... Haizzz.. I hope everthing will be fine so she wont be so troubled! Now I juz pray that she will tok to me...

If u believe in your faith, things will go through~~ Pls chose to believe!! Wendy...

the brkup~~

I have to control my tears from flowing out this time... We finally brkup~ I din want it to happen but I have no choice at all... I juz hope she will be happy... But i cant realli stop myself from crying so... :''''''''''''''( I shld juz accept her offer, to be the last person in her heart.. but i dun wan this kind of relationship.. so i decided to decline her offer... 1 day, so many things happen.. i dun realli know how to take it... guess i have to learn from here n move on... I must do it! The memories are the hardest to forget... Wendy Bb... I luv u~

PrEsEn+@TiOn I gOt aN A hor!!

Today we had a presentation during effective comms... It was so exciting... My team was the first to go... N I am the first presenter.. I was very nervous and I tot I will forget what to say but end up I remember what to say w/o looking at the script... Hahaha~~~ I did it!! Our team hours of hard work only last for half an hour.. but the grade we get makes me feel that what we had done are worthwhile... but my day did not go well at all after the presentation.. I got back my econs n math result.. *Puke~~ 60% n D... Kaoz... haiz.. very demoralizing to see the grade!!

E rE@sOn?

Hi again, I been having a quarrelling spell lately... Mayb due to exam stress... Haiz... Whose fault? No right answer man!! Yes it is my fault... I like peacefulness.. but doesnt seem to have it.. What can I do? Waiting duck? haha~~ Aniway.. thanks Desmond n KL for listening to my problems.. Great friends I had huh? Jealous? msg me to ask me for them... Hope the rainy days will be over soon... Sun! when will you come out? I miss the old times...

ToD@y~~

Today after school. I rushed down to catch "The Myth" with Bb.. It was a good show which worth your money... Jackie Chan really good at producing movie.. All the movies are really exciting and thrilling.. esp. the moves he used and making use of the props available in the scene.. After the show, we took a stroll down the long Orchard Rd.. It was such an enjoyment.. Able to take a breather finally... Last few weeks, I was tied down by tons of tutorials and scary quiz.. 3 more weeks to exams.. It was really suffocating me... Time is never on our side... So... Make BETTER use of our time!! Pray hard that I can scored good result... All As then I can play no tramps... Haha~~

bLoG

This blog is a pain in the neck.... I have post a few recently but it had nv been updated... It had really pissed me off.. So I was reluctant to retype n post again.. Haizzz..