MinD~

Hi, I cant slp again.. Juz finish playing DOTA.. Her memories kp flashing back in my mind.. I cant control it.. I tried my very best not to think of her, but i juz cant help it.. I'm so useless.. I wonder where she go tonite.. Clubbing with her friends? That's where I worry the most.. she cant drink for nuts... she gt drunk the last time gg with her friends.. I realli wonder whether she really given up on me.. I will have the Ah Q's spirits and believe she is juz angry.. Need to coax her and everything will back to normal.. But. but.. things isnt gg to work that way.. Y??? I cant find the answer.. My friends should have realise that I'm juz rotting my day doing all sorts of nonsense.. They told me that I dun look cheerful as before, I'm like always very sian everyday.. Aiya.. if any of my friends bother to read my 'punching bag'.. Is not that I really bored.. Is juz that when I'm doing nthing.. I will think of her.. I will attempt to sms or call her.. But i stone there as I dunnoe wha to say to her cos she is very cold to me.. That's y i wan to kp myself as busy as possible, so that i wont thinki of other things.. I know I'm avoiding the reality but I realli cant face it now.. Juz let me be in this shit state for a while.. Pls.. dun wake me up... I'm like having a nightmare now.. Thanks.. Sorry to my friends if I'm behaving abnormally these few mths.. I'm training to be more fit and tanned now as she last said to me was I'm too skinny.. I want to be muscular now!! that will be my aim for now.. Dun know will she notice not.. but.. everything was consider impossible till sm1 give it a try.. I'm tired.. Really tired.. I'm realli realli tired..